This post is on the same theme as the last – that of, erection prohibition. (I include later within this post some personal email exchanges between myself and Christine M.)
Learning from other FLR accounts as well as the experiences of myself and Christine M, it seems that both for the submissive and the Domme, permanent, or at least long periods of, erection prohibition are the last piece of the jigsaw that eradicates all notions the dominance and submission are some game, some sex game. My exhilaration and arousal levels are like never before from enforcing erection prohibition, while at the same time continuing to use and abuse bitch-boy for my pleasure and ease of life. Certain activities have become even more powerful for me and more affecting for my bitch when all sexual compensation is eradicated for him.
This is no sex game now, it is REAL domination, perhaps real slavery. And I can see that despite my bitch’s genuine hatred of the new regimen, he feels more awe for me than ever before, he feels I am crueller and more pitiless and more decadent than ever before, and he feels more truly dominated, (and as complex as the paradoxes are, more submissively content). Do not misunderstand though, he would adore that I allow an erection once a week or so, he begs and begs for a brief erection, but that IS NOT GOING TO HAPPPEN! And I feel exhilarated writing that. It is such decadent, heartless cruelty!
E mail exchanges
From: Ms ScarletHi Christine
It has dawned on me regarding your recent update and how it is going for poor bitch-boy here, that the erection-prohibition is somehow made even more overwhelming, or is augmented in some way, by the imposition of chores and tedium/humiliation activities too. Although the two concepts do not seem to go together, I am finding my little bitch is definitely totally overwhelmed living with both regimen at the same time.
If you are finding the same, please could you set out the typical tedium/humiliation regimen you are imposing?Scarlet xxx
From Christine M
Yes Scarlet, David has definitely found his tedium and humiliation activities more difficult than ever, to the extent that if I had not developed my Victorian Liniment recipe, I think there might have been occasions when he might have struggled to maintain obedience.
There are four main areas of tedium/ humiliation that he faces.
Chores. He does all the household chores. It is taxing, repetitive work that he finds bleaker and more depressing than ever. Moreover, he loathes that for doing it, having to dress in his maid’s uniform and apply his make-up.
Corner time. This is my preferred way of dealing with him when I go out for the evening. Once he has finished his chores, he has to go into the laundry and wait quietly for my return. This means standing nose-and-toes to the wall, with his hands on his head for the first hour. He can then lower his hands. Typically, he will only be there for one or two hours, or so.
Writing lines. This he mostly does when he travels, which is never for more than 2 – 3 nights a month. He only writes lines for about 3 hours. It is a Latin phrase, and he writes the same line every night he is away.
Playtime. This doesn’t happen so often. He dresses in his princess frock, sings nursery rhymes, and dances with his dollies. He has to talk to his dollies, and respond using their different voices, as they take turns to sing too! He starts off in front of me and my sister (on FaceTime), before we get bored with him and tersely send him off to sing by himself. He is on video feed though, so he can’t stop his sissy routine.
These have never been pleasurable experiences for him, but he struggles more than he used to. For example, I have often observed him, late evening, down on his hands and knees, looking very teary-eyed, while struggling to scrub the large kitchen floor with the vigour required, well knowing the trouble he would be in if he were to slack off for even a moment of self-pity.
In discussing it with him, it seems he feels he has lost his masculinity, and more particularly, lost his male libido, now he is denied erections.
We had been together for over seven years, before he got his first chastity device. Until then he was on an honour system. When we first got a chastity device, he could still erect in it. And even when we moved to his first Lori’s, with a piercing about three or four years ago, whilst he could not erect fully in it, he could still form/ feel an erection.
So, previously, when standing in the corner, writing lines, etc. he would have erotic (submissive) thoughts and enjoy rock-hard erections. He could feel his sexuality, his purpose if you will. Even though he was highly frustrated, he felt ‘nice’ feelings. And, until very recently, I let him out for long teases, once or twice a week.
Then, just over a year ago, I got him a much smaller, highly secure device. This is so small, that I have to ice his genitals to fit him into it. Erections are impossible. For the first couple of months, I used to still let him out a couple of times a week for long teases. Then I got some ideas from your Blog, and last November, I decreed he would have no more erections. He was devastated then, and it has only gotten worse for him.
Now when he is doing these chores and exercises, he has no sense of masculinity, there is no mental pleasure, there is no nice feeling in his groin, there is simply no sexuality attached to his submission. It is just dreary, dull, boring, and repetitive.
We are experiencing our puppets undergoing very similar feelings.
Do you have video surveillance of him when you are out and he is going corner time?
The two things that seem to most get to my puppet while in this new erection free state is firstly, when I tie him down for a harsh whipping for my pleasure. Undergoing that with zero sexual compensation affects him deeply, including that I am capable of such unfair, decadent sadism with nothing sexual in it for him.
And funnily enough, the other is his parody of a little girl activities. Colouring-in with dolly and especially if I send him out into the garden to play with a dolly while I get on indoors. (He still has to follow a strict ‘play’ routine in case I glance out of a window at him – which of course I do from time to time, and that can result in me needing an orgasm.) His very short dress leaves his chastity device, with flaccid defect locked inside, completely on show and I think this, plus what he is enduring, AND being outdoors, has him feeling utterly disregarded including sexually. No sexual compensation of any sort for such ‘extreme’ terrible humiliation/ tedium !
His submissive paradox is now at an extreme. It is pretty clear he is more in awe of me than ever before, now that I have removed sexual compensation from all he endures, yet also he HATES this new regimen and repeats how it is more than he can bear. I LOOOOOVE it! I have no sympathy or guilt though. His fantasy was being helplessly under the [power of a pitiless, cruel woman. I am now utterly pitiless and very cruel, so I am simply giving him what he wanted.