How much do you dread the Nettles and interdental brushes? How painful are they? Do you get permitted a recovery period?
I DREAD THEM HUGELY. IT IS PROBABLY MY WORST PHYSICAL FEAR – THE MISTREATMENT OF MY LITTLE CLITTY (AS I AM INSTRUCTED TO REFER TO IT). AN EXTREME FEELING OF UTTER VULNERABILITY. THE BRUSHES GIVE A FEELING OF INTENSE INTRUSION AND PRICKLING IRRITATION WHICH PERSISTS ALL THE WHILE THEY ARE ON THE MOVE. THE NETTLES ARE JUST REALLY, REALLY PAINFUL AND I AM FULLY AWARE THE PAIN TAKES LITERALLY HOURS TO SUBSIDE. IT IS ALSO DEEPLY SHAMING THAT MISTRESS CAN MAKE ME VERY HARTD AND ERECT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WHAT IS COMING NEXT. THE FEELING OF UTTER VULNERABILITY IS MAGNIFIED WHEN FULLY HARD AND ERECT, FOR SOME REASON.
Has the nettle treatments got any easier to deal with over the years?
NO. IT ALWAYS CREATES PANIC IN MY MIND.
How much do you hate the bells?
THE BELLS ARE ALMOST ALWAYS WORN, AND TINKLING, AT THE TIMES I LEAST WISH TO BE NOTICED. SO BECAUSE OF HOW I AM DRESSED OR WHAT I AM BEING MADE TO PERFORM, I WOULD MOST LIKE TO FADE INTO THE BACKGROUND AND BE FORGOTTON ABOUT, BUT THE BELLS BRING ME INTO THE FOCUS OF WHOEVER IS PRESENT WHEN PERHAPS, WITHOUT THE BELLS, I MAY HAVE NOT BEEN. THE BELLS ARE ALSO HUMILIATING IN THEMSELVES AS AN INFANTILE ADDITION.
What do you dread most?
THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS THAT REACH 10 OUT OF 10 ON THE ‘DREAD SCALE’ FOR ONE THING TO RISE TO THE TOP.
What are the the things you get to do in serving that you like?
ORAL WORSHIP OF MISTRESS, KISSING THE TOPS OF MISTRESSES FEET. RUBBING MOISTURISER OR SUN CREAM INTO MISTRESSES BODY. SEEING MSTRESS IN HEELS AND LITTLE ELSE. SEEING MISTRESS KISS AND CARESS AND BE CARESSED BY ANOTHER WOMAN ALTHOUGH THE SEXUAL DENIAL MAKES THESE THINGS A TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE TORTURE TOO.
What goes through your mind when you are immobile in the stirrups and a blindfolded and you know the nettles are coming?
UTTER VULNERABILITY, PANIC, AN OVERWHELMING DESIRE TO PLEAD EVEN THOUGH THERE IS NO POINT.
If you could what’s the one thing you would change?
TO BE ALLOLWED TO FUCK MISTRESSES AMAZING BODY.
What’s been your most humiliating tasks or ordeals?
THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS THAT REACH 10 OUT OF 10 ON THE ‘HUMILIATION SCALE’ FOR ONE THING TO RISE TO THE TOP. (DRESSED HUMILIATINGLY, THEN THE TIME WAITING FOR ONE OR MORE SUPERIOR FEMALES TO ARRIVE IS UTTERLY EXCRUTIATING.)
Has it got any easier to deal with to be dressed as a girl, learning nursery rhymes?
A LITTLE, IF THERE ARE NO VISITORS, BUT HAVING SAID THAT MISTRESS KEEPS COMING UP WITH NEW ADDITIONS TO THE SCENARIOS TO ENSURE IT REMAINS AWFUL.
What goes through your mind when you are immobile in the stirrups and a blindfolded and a new chunk of ice is deposited in your funnel gag and you await to discover the flavour today?
A PROFOUND SENSE OF HOPELESSNESS AND DEFENCIVENESS. AND THE (TRUE) FEELING OF BEING A TOY OR PLAYTHING FOR A CRUEL OWNER.
Describe the fear you have of Ms Sarah?
MOST RESPECTED GOVERNESS SARAH IS A COMPLETE SADIST AND IS UTTERLY RELAXED IN TAKING PLEASURE FROM HER SADISM. SHE TAKES HER TIME. SHE TRULY COMPLETELY IGNORES MY REACTIONS AND PLEADING.
What’s it like coming so infrequently and when you do with your inflatable sheep girlfriend?
FRUSTRATING LIKE AN GNAWING ACHE AND UNBEARABLY HUMILIATING.
As you were a sub before all the wonderful things Ms Scarlet has done to you, did you ever imagine experiencing such ordeals?
NOT SPECIFICALLY THE THINGS I NOW ENDURE, NO.