Volume 10 of my journals is published

Volume 10 is published on LULU.com as an ePub and as a paperback.

It is also published on Amazon Kindle.


Amazon V10 copy - Copy

Volume 10 of my journals provides detailed accounts of the continuing evolution of my female led relationship with bitch-boy and also featuring more and more is the involvement of my female submissive Play-toy – who also joins me in dominating my husband in all ways when she transforms into Governess Lexi, including as my lover cuckolding him. Yes, Play-toy/Governess Lexi is a switch. Submissive to females but very dominant and cruel when it comes to poor bitch-boy.

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photo of Play-toy

A_Bitch_and_her_Bitch, (I love that handle – very clever), posted a comment related to my last blog post headed, Governess Lexi Adds Torments. Their post seemed to be unnecessarily unkind to me but putting that aside, the gist was that Play-toy is an invention of mine and does not really exist. I replied to the comment and subsequently received supportive comments for which I am grateful. However Play-toy herself was very annoyed at the suggestion she did not exist! She asked me to take photos of her and post them to show she does exist. I took a couple Saturday. I am afraid they are not very good. I did have the presence of mind to wear the pair of shoes which were shown in my blog post of 23 June 2013. Here is the link to the photos.

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Governess Lexi adds torments

Well on Wednesday evening’s visit, bitch-boy endured three and a half hours of sensory deprivation bondage while I ‘played’ with my girlfriend lover,and then we freed him and Governess Lexi wanted to give bitch-boy a mouth soaping. He hated that; gagging and retching his way through the ordeal as Governess Lexi wiped the soap coated flannel over his tongue and in his mouth. Then she held up a glass of liquid and asked him if he would like to rinse out his mouth. He guessed what was in the glass and declined. Governess Lexi made him rinse with the liquid anyway! Twice! She is so cruel. You can guess what the liquid was.

Governess Lexi also came up with another default curtseying rule. She is so clever! The old rule was that bitch-boy must curtsey whenever entering or leaving an occupied room. Governess Lexi thought it would be more respectful if he were to curtsey to each person in the room when entering or leaving. So all night he had to curtsey to me and then to her, on entering and on leaving a room we were in. And of course it is now a default rule which will never go back to the old rule. The ratchet of ever deepening subjugation clicks another click, never to be ‘unclicked’.

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Nine orgsasms and cuckolding

Sunday was a bit of a record setting day. I enjoyed 9 huge orgasms. 3 from bitch-boy’s well trained tongue and 6 from my lovely Magic Wand vibrator. Orgasm number 6 was the biggest orgasm I have ever had in my life! Why so much sexual pleasure? – I think, partly because of Mistress Justine’s visit and partly because cuckolding overnight is now a norm, I have lost any last tiny vestiges of fettering limits resulting from guilt or concern over my deviance from social norms. I feel utterly liberated and free to behave just how I want. As hedonistically and ruthlessly as I desire.

bitch-boy suffered over an hour of me playing with his boy’s bits on the sofa. He did food prep chores in the kitchen while I sunbathed naked. He received a serious punishment session tied face down over the dining table. He did almost an hour of rotary clothes line duty, and I visited him four times to apply the cane for motivational purposes. He spent two hours in Sensory Deprivation Bondage with white noise. He received two applications of Deep Heat embrocation cream to his clitty during that time and a serious ruler session of dickie discipline at the end.

And also in my mind Sunday was that Play-toy is coming over to visit tonight and she is coming over for the weekend which, among other things, means overnight cuckolding for bitch-boy. My girlfriend and I sleeping in the ‘marital’ bed. Him on the floor. As last time, at the end of Saturday night, he will watch us make love in the bed while he is tied to the bed rail. Although unlike the male in the drawing by Lady Carole, he will be in his little girl’s dress which comes down only to his hips.

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Serious fear and helplessness creates the contentment

Given the comments I received on my last blog post, particularly from DarkHorseSub which were very helpful, I will make sure that anything I submit as a comment but which I wish to share with the world, I will also make a blog post. Below is the first.

I was asked to point a sub’s wife to some useful Femdom advice literature on a specific topic. I responded.

I am afraid I know of no written works which appropriately and accurately set out the needs of the deeply sexually submissive. Were I to have a conversation with your wife, I would say this.

‘If you love your submissive and you wish to be kind to your submissive and have him/her sleep the most sound and contented sleep they can every know, then the saying -‘you have to be cruel to be kind’, is the mantra by which you must live. The deeply submissive is a paradox. They need to feel helplessly in the control of another. That entails feeling that they are treated unfairly when it comes to things like allocations of chores and leisure time. It means they have to be genuinely very fearful and frightened of the punishments that are given in response to infractions. It also means they have to be subjected to pain and humiliation that they do not enjoy. It is only when they are genuinely fearful of punishment for infractions and when they suffer pain and humiliation and unfairness they genuinely would rather not experience, that they feely truly controlled and in the helpless power of another. And without feeling truly controlled and in the helpless power of another, they can NEVER be wholly content with their lives. So real love and kindness for a true submissive does not mean going easy on them in any way, or being fair with them – that causes discontent and unhappiness and is not being kind.

A subsequent comment was received.

Dear Mistress Scarlett. That response is truly awesome. Thank You so much. This one was never a deep sleeper until Mistress had me sleeping in shackles, at my instigation. So Mistress understands this aspect. This boy spends the day doing house work in collars when possible and is used by his owner for personal care. Punishment and discipline are rare however because, as previously stated, Mistress worries about hurting me. So yes, your response has hit (lol) the nail on the head so to speak. This boy is therefore not fearful. But desires to be. Most of the submission is self derived so at times this boy becomes extremely agitated. Your control and understanding of You pet is remarkable and i am so pleased for You that You have this. Again, thank You so much for Your response. Bowing deeply before You.

A final comment was received.

Dear Mistress Scarlet. This boy would like to relate to You what has happened subsequent to his discussing with my Mistress Wife Your text as shown above. Mistress stated that She was not interested in humiliation and then I guess reflected for a few days on O/our discussion. Yesterday Mistress turned to this boy and stated…. I own You, you are to respond to my instructions immediately as you are My personal property. Mistress then instructed boy to disrobe and bend over the bench. Mistress then proceeded to beat this boys backside. Mistress was hard and unrelenting. All subsequent commands have been absolute and have required instant responses. Various parts of boys body are currently either sore or tender.
Thank You so much for Your advice and guidance. This boy now understands that its life is now totally within the wants and needs of its Owner and it looks forward to servitude.

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Types of Sadism?

Before getting to the meat of this post, I have a question to my blog followers. I often post a view of mine in a comment in response to a comment I have received on my blog. Sometimes a view I would really like to share with all my blog followers. However, the number who follow my comments is less than 50% of the number who follow my blog posts. So, am I right that followers of my blog who do not follow my comments, do not see the comments I write? [There must have been a less complicated and more elegant way of writing the above!]

Below is something I would like to share with my blog followers that I was going to publish as a comment rather than a blog post. I guess less than 50% of my blog followers would have read it if I had done so?

I consider that there are four types of sadism. Sadistic pleasure from putting someone through endless tedium like when bitch-boy is in sensory deprivation bondage for hours, or having to repeatedly play a Disney Princess board game with his dollies while being mostly ignored, for hours. Then there is the sadistic pleasure from the mental pain of someone you are degrading. By having them, for instance, lick your piss from the floor, pissing on them or having them eat food you have chewed and spat out. Then there is the sadistic pleasure from the mental pain of someone you are humiliating, like when I have bitch-boy perform nursery rhymes with actions, dressed as a little girl, in front of as many mocking women as I can gather into one place. I am certain I have no boundaries for these three types of sadism and I aim for as horrendous as I can possibly make it. Then we come to traditionally understood sadism – pleasure from inflicting physical, kinaesthetic pain. I thought I had no significant boundaries. I found out during Mistress Justine’s visit that that had not been the case. But I am different now! bitch-boy has much more intense physical, kinaesthetic pain to look forward to!

[The above paragraph also happens to be an extract from my very soon to be published Volume 10 of my journals.]

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Titillating Tumblr site

Although I obviously would prefer if the ‘dominant’ old men were not in the photos, I have to say a good number of the photos in this quirky Tumblr site are very appealing.

My mind is sent racing imagining a regime where the Femboys are not ever allowed erections (and in some shots they are actually wearing KTB’s which can be used to condition males to never erect) – but, of course, the Femboys must provide sexual pleasure for others all the time.

Short dresses coming down only to their hips, exposing to all visitors the small, shaved, limp genitalia and the recent cane marks – exactly like bitch-boy! Training on putting a condom on a cock, using only the mouth. An adhesive sanitary pad applied after toileting to keep the pointless genitalia hidden away. Lots of partial ignoring while the Femboy trains itself to take a large dildo up the butt. Mincing pose, holding hems up and out, pinky finger sticking up just like bitch-boy must. Holding a little placard for all to see – ‘I have to be a girl’.

What a lovely site. does any blog follower have any more data on the authoress?

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