Even More Heartless

Well in my post of 13 May 2014, I wrote about how evolving as a Mistress creeps up on you. You become more extreme, more selfish, more pitiless and do not notice how much you change year on year. Last weekend, I did notice another step change of, to me, some significance. (to you, dear reader, you may find it insignificant.) What was the change?

Well, up until last weekend, when bitch-boy has been ill, I have always let up on him quite considerably. I have remained in charge and he has to fetch and carry and serve, but physical and mental torments (pain and humiliation) have been light and his list of chores has been light. I think it was a mixture of compassion and of wanting him to get well quickly so I could resume my usual regime. BUT last weekend was different. We had a vanilla event to attend on the Sunday, but on the Saturday, although he was really quite under the weather with a heavy cold, bordering on influenza – although it was not influenza. I just felt like using and abusing him to the extent I would if he was well. Which is what happened. His chores list was light, but that was the only concession. I felt no pity. I was a cold hearted bitch. Playing with his boy’s bits on the sofa, then him in his sissy maid’s attire for over an hour, prepping a very elaborate evening meal in the kitchen, then him in his full little girls outfit playing with his dollies for a couple of hours. First colouring-in his Fairy Colouring-In Book, then playing his Disney Princess Board game – again and again and again. Finally TSD bondage for over two hours and a nasty session of dickie-discipline involving the ruler and some very nasty stinging nettles!

I had lots of very, very powerful orgasms throughout the day. I think I felt even more perverse and cruel (and powerful) knowing I had evolved yet more. I have no idea why this sliver of compassion, after all those years, just evaporated overnight? But it was gone. He was very under the weather and yet I used and abused him nevertheless. And, of course, that is how it will be from now on. The process of evolving is like a ratchet turning. Once it clicks over a notch, it never goes back again.

On the Sunday, in a slightly sulky manner, bitch-boy questioned me over this change. I could tell it had shocked him. When I replied that I had changed and did not know why and I felt no guilt or compassion, AND that is how it would be from now on – he looked a little shocked and wounded and helpless. But I also saw a hint of awe hidden away in his expression. His submissive soul could not help but marvel at the yet more extreme heartlessness of his cruel, selfish Mistress. Such is the lot of the true submissive!

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My Tumbler Femdom site

My Tumbler Femdom site now has over 5000 followers. I am impressed by that, but then I have no idea what is impressive for a Tumbler site. Such are the mysteries of social media. It could be that 5000 is quite pathetic. Anyway, I still set bitch-boy a weekly target of a chosen number of images that he must post or re-blog onto the site. I must find each image he does post or re-blog to be arousing and / or amusing for it to count towards his target. He knows me well and almost never gets it wrong. Of course, given he is locked in his polycarbonate penis tube, through his frenum piercing and he only cums once every 10 days to 2 weeks, AND, given he is a submissive – aroused by images of dominant women – I think he finds his Tumbler duty rather frustrating. LOL.

I think my tastes are revealed! CFNM, dicky-discipline, tease and denial, partial ignoring, degradation with nectar and spit, oral slavery, licking the soles of mistresses shoes and boots, enforced petticoating and sissyfication, male slaves being cuckolded with lesbian lovers. No doubt there are other things that have not immediately sprung to mind.

I do enjoy use and abuse of females by other females too, (as you know), but I decided that my Tumbler site should not include images of females being used and abused as I consider female slaves of so much higher status than male slaves that the tribulations of female slaves should not be published for males to see – on my site.

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Play-toy tortures bitch-boy

I received a wonderful email from play-toy yesterday. She had by pure chance on Facebook come across an adult colouring-in book which, on examination, would clearly take hours to colour-in each page. She asked if she could buy one to gift to bitch-boy on her next visit. Enchanted Forest: An Inky Quest and Colouring Book. I responded that, of course, yes she could. I did point out that on the one hand, the book play-toy had found is not as humiliating as the six identical books bitch-boy already has, as these are designed very specifically for little girls and each page shows fairies engaged in one activity or another. However, the fact that the woman his Mistress cuckolds him with, is so minded and so mean as to buy him a very challenging (tedious!) colouring-in book which will ensure hours of humiliating boredom and submission, will absolutely crush him. The thought that she had making him miserable – in her mind, and now has the power to do so, will make him feel very vulnerable and insignificant. I love it!

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Cuckolding with play-toy

I forgot to post about my new female play-toy’s first visit a couple of weekends ago. For a first interaction between Domme and sub it was excellent. There is a bedding-in phase whenever a Domme and sub begin a relationship, so not everything was perfect. I have to say play-toy has an amazing tolerance of pain. I was quite shocked by what she could take without a murmur or whimper! We are planning her next visit now and I am very much looking forward to it. It will of course be fully detailed as a journal entry in the forthcoming Volume 9 of my journals.

Once she and I had concluded our mutual fun for the day, I took play-toy in to where cuckolded bitch-boy had been secured on the BDSM bed. He was actually secured to the bed for 6 hours in all – poor thing. Play-toy and I used nettles, the ruler and Deep Heat Muscle Rescue on his little clitty. The Cialis worked wonders keeping him rock hard despite the pain and humiliation. (And the 10 days without cumming. LOL) Oh he did sob! Play-toy picked up the techniques with fantastic speed, using the ruler like a pro, although perhaps not quite as hard as I do. She showed no mercy at all, and very considerable pleasure – just perfect. Bitch-boy was blindfolded the whole time, so he has yet to see play-toy in the flesh. He will next time though, probably dressed as a little girl and holding his big dolly, so I am sure he will wish he had been left blindfolded and bound for 6 hours instead – but subs don’t get what they want do they?

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Golden Showers

Readers of my Journal No. 6, among other things I have written, will know that I had a walk-in shower included in a refurbishment of my bathroom a while ago. Pissing on bitch-boy is one of my favourite things. However, the workmanship was poor, the contractors were cowboys. (Real life I am afraid.) So I have been without a walk-in shower for some period of time while I had the bathroom again refurbished, this time to a very high standard. The purpose of this post is to announce that my new walk-in shower is finished and will be christened this weekend. (Or I could say, bitch-boy will be baptised in it this weekend, but not with holy water.) Although you might say for him, my nectar is holy water.

I can imagine him enduring a special shower being virtually a daily occurrence from now on.

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Stinging nettles for his cock – its Springtime

Well the nettles are only poking up three inches out of the ground in my garden, but, this weekend, that was tall enough for me to test out on poor bitch-boy’s little clitty. The first since last Autumn. Oh I do love Spring for so many reasons. He was secured on the BDSM bed, legs wide apart, ankles and thighs in the gynaecological stirrups. He was very hard after a minimal amount of stroking from my expert fingers. (good old Cialis) and he was whimpering – I love that whimpering before I have even started. Then on went my leather gloves.

Stroking his hard clitty with a sprig of the nettles only caused a couple of stings although the whimpering increased in panicking intensity in a very amusing way. So then I changed my approach to a whipping motion. This brought excellent results. Inspection revealed lots of tiny red bumps of pain and bitch-boys whimpers had turned to those of pain and sorrow rather than anticipation. The sequence of events and his sounds were enough for me to have to stop seeing to him and to see to myself! So that was it for the first session. Short, and sweet (for me). The small fresh leaves will be ideal for filling a pouch, which will be bitch-boy’s next encounter with the nettles. That will be a much more intense, drawn-out affair. He is fretting already – and he is right to be.

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Mainstream Femdom films

First a correction. In my last blog post I made reference to a film version of ‘Venus In Furs.’ It appears it was incorrect to append the words – ‘La Vénus à la fourrure.’ to the title. So to fully identify the film to which I was referring, it is called Venus In Furs – it is a Dutch film made in 1994 and released in 1995, starring Anne van de Ven and is in black and white. My thanks to Martin who emailed me a copy, dubbed in English which I look forward to watching. I will watch the film with bitch-boy on the floor at my feet and he has been locked in his penis tube without sexual relief for quite some time so I hope he finds the film arousing as well as me, although that will mean sexual frustration for him, but not for me! LOL.

On the subject of mainstream FEMDOM films, one I have seen which does have some very good scenes (for a mainstream film) is called – ‘My Normal’ released in 2009.

There is also a recent Australian film released in 2014 called My Mistress which looks pretty good going by the trailer on the film’s website. It is not available on Amazon UK yet but I thought I would mention it for any blog readers with access to Australian film releases who did not know about it.

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